Also I think I'm losing my faith in God.
Because I find it disgusting that the world to only chooses to pray/believe in him when something bad happens.
My believe in God (i.e. the existence of the afterlife) is based on fear.
Fear that if I choose not to believe then I will go to hell.
Which leads me to think further if God is rational and always forgiving
why will he send me to hell just cause I am skeptical and question/doubt his existence?
And if God punishes me for such rational doubt, isnt he no better than Satan?
I hate living in fear all the time.
I hate having this catholic guilt hanging over my shoulder.
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faith in god because of fear of what may happen is NOT the way to live sweetheart.
don't be an atheist though. they have absolutely no magic in their lives. there is so much in the world that is so indescribably beautiful that it can't possibly mean nothing on a higher level.
questioning your faith, as I have done for the better part of this year, doesn't make you a bad person. it strengthens your spirituality.
people who pray to god in times of strife but pay him no attention otherwise may be hypocrites, but it's just a symptom of the way things are.
I personally don't quite follow the catholic persuasion as closely as I was brought up to, but I know that god is forgiving and loving and he does not turn his back on you no matter what you do to him.
(ooh this sounds a little preachy but i was trying to phrase this comment correctly... it's turned out a little bible-bashingish :/)
just... don't become an atheist. they're just as bad as the hardcore religious. choose to believe in something (not even god, per se), even if you don't follow all the rules :)
wait! addition!
"but I know that god is forgiving and loving and he does not turn his back on you no matter what you do to him."
this is why I know that if I ever choose to return to my faith, i won't have any problems.
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