RANT #1

SO.

long story short. 

I don't think we'll be going back to Singapore for the hols anymore.

I'm hoping my dad will come over 

(with my floral doc martens which he finallllly found in the storeroom) 

and that we'll go to the Gold Coast again

because all I really need/want is some time with the roller coasters.

Yes I'm an adrenaline junkie; I plan to bungee jump when I'm older.

Had a major binge without the P sesh after AGAIN.

cause there is nothing like losing a kilo in 3 days and putting it all back on in 1.

But I have an appointment with the doctor and all that nonsense on tuesday&wednesday

so hopefully I get some pills 

cause I reckon I need to go on medication

so as bad as I feel right now I dont feel quite that bad.

just really god damn hungry. 

And no urges DONT PASS!

I ate went to sleep for 3 hours in hopes of stopping this urge

woke up it is still here to stay.

PS: the number of lurkers of my blog has increased quite drastically ( even though I know that 100 of the views are probably my mom)

but its only cause I've lost weight right?

well fuck that yous can all die.