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You know what?
I'm sick and tired of worrying about my future.

edit: if studying fails me.
my PLAN B is to either continue working on drums or go learn bass.
or fuck it play the keyboard or sth.
and i'll start a band.

my PLAN C is to become anorexic or do whatever it takes to lose all my weight till i'm skin and bones and muscles.yes i'll need my muscles.
and i'll just go do ballet.
since that's all im good at.
i'll work on my technique.
all those years of getting 90s and not 100s.
just coz i didnt turn out my feet enough, point my feet hard enough, go up on my toes high enough.
whatever vivien stiff arse u know i was better than you.
anyways then i'll go into teaching hell all i need is to do what 2, 3 more exams and i can be a teacher.
I'll give the cheapest ballet lessons
I'll charge just enough to pay for the rental of the studio, for a meal a day and a good supply whole library of books and coffee.
No need to pay for an apartment. I could live in the ballet studio.
then I'll retire and I'll have all the time in the world to read those books and drink all the coffee till i grow old and wrinkly and die.

PLAN D is to go to sniper school and work for the government.
HA.

PLAN E got to MIT in America and become a computer hacker.